Typical asian parents prefer sons over daughters, no?
such sexism.




That is how it is like in my family.

My brothers are always given more freedom, when I'm here feeling so caged
My brothers are top priority, Im always second. or third.
I can usually put up with that, although I do break down and explode at times..


BUT NOW IM SERIOUSLY EXTREMELY PISSED.
WT*PEEP* , heck,
Last week I've told my dad that I'll be having a week of holiday and I wanted to spend it in Indonesia.
Then he said that I should just stay here since it's just a week and it would be tiring for me to go back and forth. Moreover, my older brother will not be going back due to his upcoming A2 exams. oh well.
.I was fine with that. I really was.
But now, with this load of homeworks and assignments given by the teachers, not to mention the upcoming quizzes and tests, my dad suddenly called and told me to go to Indonesia!

I tried to refuse, I now really want to stay here and do my work. I want to stay and go for group study.
I seriously dont want to go back!!

but they didnt give me a choice. they have even bought the tickets.
guess why they want me to go back.





ITS TO TEACH MY LITTLE BROTHER MATHS AND ENGLISH SINCE HE'LL BE SITTING FOR THE ASSIGNMENT TEST ON JUNE.


GAWSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH .



I HAVE TO GO BACK AND TIRE MYSELF WITH THE CONTINUOUS FLIGHTS JUST TO TEACH MY LITTLE BROTHER?
HE CAN LEARN BY HIMSELF WHAT. HE ISNT STUPID. HECK, NOBODY IS!

AND WHAT ABOUT MY OWN ASSIGNMENTS?
MY TESTS MY PROJECTS MY HOMEWORKS?
DO I REALLY HAVE TO BRING THE BOOKS ALL THE WAY TO INDONESIA?

WHAT ABOUT ME!!!




I HAD NOBODY TO TEACH ME ENGLISH WHEN I FIRST CAME HERE.
MY OLDER BROTHER DIDNT EVEN BOTHER. HE JUST SENT ME FOR AN ENGLISH TUITION AND THATS IT.


THATS IT.





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life can be really unfair at times..
parents can be really unfair and annoying too...


and I just can't help but feel unloved .
why cant I be a male?
why am I a girl?
why cant I receive the same amount of love as my two brothers?
why am I not given the freedom my brother has?

......why..?